am sitting in front of the computer trying to get my self composed.

If UM is just the teething process of my growth, God, how hard more can it be?

The feeling of something inside me dying, yes, God, teach me to let what is left of my selfish desire die, I just don't want to be frozen into a cold and judgemental person by my circumstances, I don't want to be angry, I don't want to be dissapointed, as hard as it is.

Teach me to rest in You. When I come running to You, I know Your arms are always open. The walk alone is terrifying, Lord, again and again You deny me the comforts of this world, so that I can rely on You and You alone.
So that I will trust in You.

You know there is still bitterness and anger in me, please crush all my superficial thoughts.Help me accept, Help me love inspite and despite of myself, because the Love You gave me is even much more than that.

thank You~
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A cock is crowing at the back of my house, and thats real weird.

anyhoo, National Conference is around the corner, am I expecting something? Of cause I am, I hope to meet new people, to see new things, and more importantly to grow more, *just keep growing, just keep growing, just keep growing* (do it in the Dory's just keep swimming slang from Finding Nemo)

okay, I am getting lamer by the sec.

Back to what I was saying, I hope that God will change my mindset on UM, and give me His peace, so that when my four years is completed I am more prepared and equipt to be His worker.

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I love the holidays, so far managed to met with Jin kor, Syen, Jon and Miki, hopefully get to meet Jo later =).

Finish teaching tuition to my SPM student, he sat for his paper on Tuesday, I just hope the best for him :)

oh, and let me tell you I went completely berserk after my exams, zoomed straight to Mid Valley to catch these :)
movie marathon. heh.










Chicken Little was awesomely funny, I love Fish out of water and the singing Pig. XDA Chicken kissing a duck is GROSS.

Exorcism Of Emily Rose was quite ok, I liked the way the plotted out the whole story and the way it was told, great story tellling and characters.
Check out what Chris has to say about this

Harry Potter was just average, sure the effects and all that was a nice treat, but me being more a book person didn't like the way the characters was portrayed, kinda distorted from the book, but then again, each person's interpretation is quite different.

Cello is not really worth the money, just an average "scare you with the past" movies, and I find the main character annoying.

Now, I wanna watch this, hopefully today, cuz I'll be off to NC soon.






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as mentioned, went to 1U yesterday with Shok Chan and Yee Fun, while waiting for them as they watched Harry Potter, I sneaked myself to MPH XD

I prefer the MPH in Mid Valley

1U's MPH wraps up MOST of it's books and I can't find the books I want
-______- except Man and Wife, but it's a thin book and I plan to read it in one sitting, not buy it. blah, but it's wrapped up. nyerrrrrr...

but i managed to scout out a browser's copy of this


which makes me wanna get this book as well :P
and this



which I managed to finish, a really satisfying read.
I love the book!!!It's the kind of book that makes you feel like reading it the second time.

The book it's tells two sides of a story, when the character Eddie dies and meets the 5 people in his life, some whom he knew, loved and that mattered to him, some whom needed his forgiveness, even strangers who holds the key to the many questions in his life.

Awesome plot and description, the way the author weaves the story together, and the magical truth of sacrifice and the stories behind the people that we do not know and yet judge.

I'm gonna have to read Tuesdays With Morrie soon XD

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No life is a waste. The only time we waste is the time we spend thinking we are alone

Strangers, are just family you have yet to come to know.

~ The Blue Man, From the five people you meet in heaven

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P/S: Visited Dewgem's blog... waaaaaaaa awesome conference she attended. I wanna get to know people from all over the world and exchange thoughts with them as well. What an experience.